Redefining MommyhoodJourney of a mom whose son is overcoming hypotonia

Luke and I had a playdate today with one of my friends who has a one year old daughter. My friend works full time but happens to have weekdays off sometimes. I can definitely tell the difference between us as mommies.
Since I am home all of the time with Luke, I think I take my time with him for granted. I also think I get more stressed out about things. This could also be from dealing with the issues we have. She seems to be more in the moment when she is home with her daughter and definitely less frazzled. I guess this could just be a difference in our personalities though too.

Like the saying goes “the grass is always greener on the other side”. My friend thinks I am so lucky to be able to stay at home all of the time, but I am kind of jealous of the moms who have a life outside of home. She runs her own business and gets to feel pride in herself and know that she is helping to support her family. I know staying at home is just as important, if not more than bringing in a paycheck, but I do feel like I am missing out on taking care of myself most days. I’m not sure if this is selfish or normal?

With Luke having his hypotonia issues, I would also feel guilty if I went to work full time. This would mean that someone else at a daycare or a babysitter would have to be responsible for his therapy appointments during the day. No one is going to pay as much attention as I would, so I’m sure the PT wouldn’t be as effective.

There is guilt either way as a mommy. I think we just need to somehow find a balance between our lives with our children and time for ourselves. If anyone knows how to do this, please let me know!!