Redefining MommyhoodJourney of a mom whose son is overcoming hypotonia

I mentioned a couple posts ago that I started going back to my “Inner Journey” class. We are reading Louise Hay’s “You Can Heal Your Life”. I was amazed when I read her personal story where she said she remembered her parents divorcing when she was only 18 months old. Our instructor said that from a very young age, and even in utero, things are stored in our subconscious. There have been studies done on this where patients have been asked certain questions while under hypnosis. They later discovered things they said while under occurred while their mother was pregnant with them! I know, it’s far fetched and I’m not sure if I completely believe it myself. I do believe that we can remember things from when were are very young though, so maybe?

This got me thinking about Luke. While I was pregnant and going to class, all of the women kept saying how lucky my baby was for being in class and being “enlightened”. They said he would come into this world ahead of the spiritual game and would be a “yogi” of sorts. Oh, by the way, I should mention that Luke’s name means “bringer of light”. I mentioned this last week to my instructor and told her that maybe Luke is the way he is because of these In Utero Subliminal Messages. She thought it could be possible (of course!). He is very laid back and sweet, not to mention flexible like a yogi!

Who knows, maybe this isn’t a bunch of hocus pocus. Or maybe it’s just me trying to make sense of things and come up with an answer of my own. What do you think?

I spend the majority of my blog time talking about Luke’s hypotonia and the journey we have been on for the past year or so to get him caught up. He has come a long way since he started physical therapy in May of 2009. He had PT today at Brooks Rehab. He stood independently for a few minutes and even took a couple steps on his own! The therapist and I were very excited!

While we were in the waiting area waiting for our therapist, there was an older man and woman chatting. They were both in wheelchairs. The woman mentioned something about a stroke, but I’m not sure what happened to the man. They were comparing notes about different nursing homes in the area. The man said that he is 61 years old! He is younger than Luke’s grandpas! I know he has family because he was talking to me about Luke and mentioned that he had just seen his 4 year old grandson. It made me really sad!

No matter what we have going on in our lives, or how bad things seem, we are given our lives for a reason. We need to make the most of them while we can. Luke can’t walk right now, but there are plenty of adults who could walk as toddlers, but they can’t now. You never know what this life has in store for you.

Luke was given to me for many reasons. I accept him the way he is (this took a little while for me to do though) and continue to work along with him to give him the best life possible. That is what any parent does (or should do), no matter the circumstances. I am very lucky to have him in my life:)

Hello everyone! I was pleasantly surprised to find comments on here from some new readers:) Thank you so much for taking time to stop by and hear/read what I have to say. I replied to your comments on the comment section, so please check it out!

I apologize for the lack of content lately. I have so many things going on during the week and so many projects to do around the house, I’ve let my computer take a backseat for awhile. I guess that’s not necessarily a bad thing though! I do plan on getting back into the swing of things soon though, especially now that I know there are people out there in bloggy world reading mine:)

Not a whole lot new has been going on since the holidays. Santa brought Luke a lot of fun and therapeutic toys. I am hoping to post some pictures of them soon. We had a quiet New Years. I stayed up to watch the ball drop, then went to bed! I think my hubby stayed up for a little longer than me, but he wasn’t doing anything exciting. We are getting so old!!

Speaking of which, I also just turned 34 a few weeks ago. My hubby celebrated his birthday 5 days later. He turned 36, so he will always be the “old” one On a personal note, I am happy to be returning to my “Inner Journey” class. When we first moved here 3 years ago, I found this class that discusses looking inward and working on yourself. We talk a lot about spirituality and read some New Age-y type books. We read “The Secret” and “Divine Magic” by Doreen Virtue. I attended 3 terms before I had Luke. The class was mostly older women and one man:) They were all really sweet and even gave me a baby shower! I have kept in touch with a couple of the ladies as well as the teacher. She recently decided to offer a night class, so I am able to go again. I am so happy to be back in the class with like-minded people where we are free to speak our minds and opinions without feeling like we will be judged. The class changed my life and has made me a more positive person.

As far as Luke’s therapy goes, I am starting to feel like we have hit a plateau. He refuses to cooperate with our Early Steps PT when she comes now. She hasn’t really shown us anything new in the past few months. The PT we were seeing at the out-patient rehab quit a few months ago, so we have a new PT. I like her, but she doesn’t show us as many strengthening exercises. She basically just has Luke walk with a push toy and tries to get him to walk while holding onto one finger. I feel like we can do this at home (which we do everyday!) and save ourselves the $25 co-pay once a week. We are seeing another new girl this week, so maybe she will have some new techniques for us. I really think the DAFOs are helping Luke’s form and hopefully making him stronger since he is now working the muscles the correct way.

In pet news, my other cat, Smokey is sick. If it’s not one, it’s the other! He almost died 2 years ago from pneumonia. We managed to save him even though the vets told us if we brought him home, he would die. We are crazy pet people! We went so far as to create an oxygen tent for him and rent a tank to hook up to it. He started showing signs of pneumonia again, so I rushed him back to the vet yesterday. The xrays show fluid/puss etc and he has a mild case of it again. He is back on antibiotics and I’ve been “vaporizing” him in the bathroom once a day. He is nowhere near as sick as last time, thank God! We hopefully won’t have to recreate the tent!

Ok, I feel better now that I updated my blog!! It’s time for me to do some homework for my “Inner Journey” class. Goodnight to everyone in the blogosphere! Keep your wonderful comments coming. I feel like I have found a great purpose in life by sharing these experiences with you.

Hugs!!!

Sorry for the lack of updates lately. I have some pictures from Christmas that I’ve been meaning to post, but I have just had no energy lately. It’s been really cold here (for Florida), so I think I’ve got a touch of the good, old-fashioned cabin fever. It’s still sunny here though, so I really can’t use that as an excuse:)

I am going to try and take one night this weekend to upload the pics and write some new posts.

Thanks!!

Today, Luke and I went out to run some errands. I was trying to get him dressed and out of the house semi-early so we could be back in time for lunch. He was fighting me the whole time and did not want to get dressed. We ended up leaving probably 20 minutes later than I had wanted.

We were driving down the highway when a firetruck came up behind us with their lights and siren going. I pulled over and told Luke to look because he loves firetrucks. About 2 minutes later, a whole convoy of emergency vehicles were behind us. I pulled over again and let them all fly by us. About a half mile down the road, we came upon a horrible accident! I couldn’t really tell how many vehicles were involved, but I could see an SUV had flipped over and the paramedics were working on someone. The police had me stop while a man and his young boy, probably around 3 years old, crossed the road.

All I could think about was how if we had left when I wanted, that could have been us. Luke was my angel today for being stubborn and procrastinating about getting dressed. I hope everyone involved today is ok. I’ve checked the local news websites tonight, but didn’t see any information. Please send some prayers and good thoughts to all involved.